OMG!

I need to vent a little bit.

I got it pretty rough right now. This semester is my last and it is literally killing me! I'm not one who gets sick and I've been sick off and on, every month this semester. I'm broke because international students like me can't work off campus on our visas so I can't afford real/fresh food. I also have no time to cook or sleep or work out. Everything that could help keep me healthy I have no time to do.

What am I doing? Working 2 jobs just to pay rent, and taking 6 extra credits on top of a full course load. Sounds suicidal doesn't it? Why am I doing it? Well I was blessed with a student loan that would cover me for this one semester. I have to finish this semester because I won't be able to pay for another semester. *sigh*

I don't know how many of you are praying people but... I NEED PRAYER! I have to get to the end of this semester. I need a job, an apartment, and a car. Lord help me.

Bringing Sexy Back in 2010!

My roommate and I have made a resolution this year. It's gonna sound familiar because it's one that EVERYONE makes on Dec. 31 but forgets, or quits by Jan. 7.

We're gonna get in shape. Not just saying it, we're DOING it! Both of us WILL be bikini ready this summer.

Her goals are slightly different from mine but I can share with you where I'll be going.

My weight is in the healthy range for my height so that's not what I'm concerned about. What I want is a redistribution of the fat on my body, and to lower my percentage of body fat.

I'm gonna be a beast in the gym this year.

I have a fairly muscular body type which means I can gain or lose weight pretty easily depending on what I'm doing. When I work out regularly I see results in as little as two weeks. But when I slack off (which I usually do once I notice results) I go right back to where I was in about 2 weeks. Not everyone loses inches and gets tones the same way. Some people slim down with a lot of cardio. I'm not one of them. I have to lift weights. Strength training is the BOMB for me!

This year I will NOT slack off. I will track my progress and keep pushing till I get where I want to go. Once I get there I'll just maintain. I'm super excited because I went Thursday and today and though sore, I feel SO GOOD!

Thanks for reading ladies (and gentlemen?)!

-Raxxie

The look of love...

This is one of my favorite songs of all time! Yes, I'm a romantic. Guilty as charged. Although it's a cliche I am a firm believer in that look.

Haven't you ever seen it?

It's not something that you'll see terribly often when you're single but every once in awhile you find someone who is head over heels for you and.. there it is!

People can fake SO many things when it comes to love and relationships. We can tailor what we say. We dress a certain way. We curtail our behavior to make a good impression. But that look? You can't fake that look.

He buy you all types of beautiful, thoughtful, ooo and awww type things. He may take you places that you've always wanted to go (literally, you dirty minded people). He may appear to bend over backwards for you, get close tou your friends and family, brag about you in public, the whole shpeel. But if he NEVER looks at you with love in his eyes.. chances are his intentions are less that virtuous.

I know what B.S looks and sounds like. Trust me, I didn't always believe in the look myself. Then I saw it.

It was the end of a first date. Mr. Gentleman and I were about to part ways. He hugged me, said something (don't remember what), then he looked at me. OMG.. (insert girly sigh). That was the point where I knew his feelings were for real. I got chills.

This isn't a lustful stare. It isn't even something I can describe. The English language sadly, doesn't have adequate words to do it justice. But when you see it, you know it in an instant.

I'll say this again, he can't fake it. Neither can you. Sometimes we don't recognize it or ignore it because we don't expect it. I personally am a sucker for it. Lol, aww well.

He can act aloof and play it cool as we SO often do in the beginning, but once his guard is down and feelings get deeper be on the look-out for it. This doesn't mean that an aloof guy isn't an aloof guy. He could be, he could be uninterested. What I'm saying is this: if you're trying to figure out which he is, the look he gives you will give him away. You can only hold back so long.

Alright, I think I'll stop here.. I'm remembering a few too many looks, and non-looks.. lol..

Thanks for reading!

-Raxxie

He's just not that into you...

This is my first post that has absolutely nothing to do my hair. Hope you'll read along with me anyway.

I love action movies, thrillers, and serious dramas! Love, love, love them. I watch romantic comedies too but just for the entertainment factor, and usually to kill some time. The movie in the title of this blog is the exception.

For some reason, I can't get enough of this movie. It has witty dialogue and VERY good points about male/female interactions.

If you haven't seen it, I suggest you do. It goes through the lives of seven interconnected people in various stages of romantic relationships. I never really thought about how much miss-communication exists between the genders especially with the things women tell each other about men.

Because we fear rejection and single-hood so much, we justify all the crappy things we go through in the dating world. Bottom line? If he treats you like crap, or refuses to give you what you're looking for STOP EXPECTING HIM TO CHANGE. He either DOESN'T like you, or CANNOT give you what you need because he DOESN'T want to or DOESN'T have it. That's all it is.

Any man who finds a woman he wants will do whatever he has to, to get her. It's just in his nature to go after it and he will, even if he looks like an idiot in the process. I've seen it.

The movie parodies these points in a smart way and I love it.

I love sociology, psychology, and anthropology. I love looking at how people behave and interact. It's amazing how we react to each other. Seriously, its a movie to watch.

Thanks for reading!

-Raxxie

Oye.. Swine Flu

Ok, this isn't a lock-related post.

I just feel like talking.

I haven't blogged really this week, sorry for that. I've been super busy, plus I feel germs trying to get me sick.

I've been keeping them at bay so far, gladly, but I can still feel it.

Let's just HOPE I don't come down with the dreaded SWINE FLU!

dun dun duuuuuuuun!